having a lot of thoughts right now on the direction my music has been taking. a lot of people who used to constantly play my music, don't necessarily play or talk about my new style so much.

back in 2018-2019, i released my first real solo mixtape/album called super dark times and at that time had established such an odd mesmerizing turn with my production. the first song i recorded for that project dates as far back as september 2018 and was called reflection. my girlfriend at the time was becoming distant, and creating something so different helped me cope just by listening to it and not releasing it. from that song to literally january/february 2019 as i became newly single, i was listening to jpegmafia's jesus forgive me, i am a thot and veteran album along with wormrot's voices album, give the human devil his due by mystifier, and anything death grips had released at that point. the result, you get the heavily sample based album super dark times.

late 2019 was something else. my friends had all recently moved away to different cities for college and i stayed back home working odd jobs and continuing my hobbies. feeling estranged and looking for the shock factor in rap, i released my first ep called pussy on christmas day, 2019. i didn't share the album, and didn't even let anyone know it was out until maybe a few weeks later.

for the next 12 months, i recorded, produced, and wrote absolutely nothing at all. i still felt extremely estranged and isolated from any kind of social life or friend group, and now had a new girlfriend and a lot less time on my hands. of course i kept in touch through social media, but with covid and no physical contact it was awful. by november, 2020, my song yaddas from the pussy ep had gained a slight bit of popularity as i noticed it suddenly had been getting thousands of plays on spotify.

the next month, i was eager and excited to put something else out for the first time in a year. so i quickly made a song called giddy with my frequent collaborator air robbie and yet again by the next month in january 2021, it had over a thousand plays. i released a single a month in the months of february, march, and may of this year with good reception each time. but the momentum somehow did not last too long, as the streaming numbers and listeners are dropping lower by the day. luckily, my ego is in the right place with music so i'm not hurt at all, i'm hoping by using websites like newgrounds, i can find a real fan base or friends who i can talk to.

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sideshow the king